Monday, January 14, 2013

Memory Loss



I was very forgetful during my last pregnancy.  Part of it was simply being pregnant.  But, part of it was trying to get ready for my third child, as well as getting my family ready for all the changes. 
My son recently reminded me of how forgetful I was during the last few weeks of my pregnancy.  As we were getting ready to leave for school one morning, I didn’t have enough hands to grab his backpack and all the other things we needed in the van that day.  “Mommy, don’t forget my backpack!” he chided from the back seat.  “I didn’t forget it, buddy, I just didn’t have enough hands,” I told him.  “Well, you used to forget everything before the baby was born.”
I’d like to say that my forgetfulness has changed since I gave birth.  But it hasn’t.  There are mornings where I do forget a backpack or a permission slip.  The evenings when I realize I’ve forgotten to put supper in the crock pot are pretty crazy.  I can’t count the number of times I’ve forgotten the reusable bags at the grocery store, or to purchase something that was actually on my list!  And my bank isn’t so happy when I forget to transfer money between my savings and checking accounts.
For me, forgetfulness is usually bad—until I put it into heavenly perspective.  God forgets all the time.  He forgets the times that I forget to read my Bible.  He forgets the times when I forget to pray with my children.  He forgets the times when I’m too lazy to deal with my children’s bad behavior in the right way and instead bribe them to do what I want them to do.
As I think of all the things I need to remember, I pray that God helps me remember how forgetful he is.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Lazy



I got to be lazy over Christmas this year.  My husband and I and our three kids made the 21-hour trek back to my parents’ house.  For five days my kids had someone besides me to entertain them, to help feed them, to snuggle them and tuck them in at night.  Then, we went to my husband’s parent’s house, and my kids had another three days of grandparent love.  And I had a great time relaxing with my husband, sneaking off to Walmart, Kwik Trip, Farm and Fleet and explore the new bypass in my husband’s home town.  (Can you tell we’re from the Midwest?)
Unfortunately, my laziness carried over into my Bible reading.  I started out okay, reading before bed at night.  However all my visiting and relaxing had me staying up later.  I had a hard time reading anything, much less the book of Revelation, and not falling asleep.  And so I just stopped.
While we were visiting, my Mom gave me a book to help me in my walk as a busy mom.  I’m not positive, but I don’t think she gave it to me hoping to encourage me to get back into my Bible, but that’s what happened.  The first chapter in the book reminded me of the importance of daily Bible reading.  As I read through the author’s suggestions for reading the Bible, I realized that my laziness had not just started over the Christmas break.  Even when I had been reading my Bible nightly, I had been lazy.  I had been following my daily Bible, but not really thinking about what I was reading.  The author of the book made a few good suggestions, one of which I think I’m going to follow.  She suggested reading a Psalm and using the words of each verse to write a prayer back to God.
Even though I was lazy over Christmas, my God was not.  He didn’t stop caring for me, watching over my family as we traveled, providing for us more than we could ever ask.  Sometimes it’s nice to be lazy.  But, I’m going to ask God to help me not to be lazy in my Bible study any more.
P.S.  Thanks to my parents and my in-laws for letting me be lazy!